Yea , Lots have things have changed .. But i will continue a where i left off.
And I will tell it exactly how it went..
After relizing my life has been full filled with nothin but responsibility from the day i left my parents house My senior year of high school .. I have only concentrated on what is right. All the advice i have taken from everyone i trust. Was the right thing to do.. I lisoned And worked hard and focus on what is best for me.. Throught all my journey i have been threw i accomplish a great deal of thing for a 25year old .. Now i am coming out of a relationship of 6 years and a marriage of 3 years. Nothin but good things have came from my marrige and all the hard times that come with that way life no (regrets).
From the outside looking in my life to others may have seemed like a dream come true. Great job (Chef at a Ritz) no money problems desent marrige and great family and tons of good people around me... I Relized that all i have cared about my hole life is the drive to get to the next step in my industry.. During that i have lost my marrige and agreat part of my personality.. As well as forgot who iam really am.. After my seperation with my wife i was left ot really care about just my self threw this i couldnt get a grip on finding my self cuz i was use to always haveign something to work for like my wife and trying to become the best i can be for her or a family that could have had .. After a quick sluty rebound relation ship that tied me over till i could walk on my own. I spiked my self in to one of the worst times in my life.. I hated my job adn just plan hated life in genral and really felt like there was any reason to get out of bed .. But all this is pretty normal at this stage of peoples lives.. Everyone i talk to that is around the same age is me.. Is surching for the same shit rather it is accomplishments or finding a career even maybe a relationship that they never had.. My advice to people that are going threw this stage is to get up and stop bitching around and put everything on the line to find what you are looking for.. Dont let money or peoples oppinons stand in the way.. just lison to yourself and go for it.. Cuz nothing is going to come out of it by sitting around and bitching about it. The way i dealed with it is the same way alot of people do it (Drinking) Its worst then drugs cuz it is legle and you can do it anytime. I started Drinking my self to a happy sober state of mine.. Which was great cuz it got me out of bed and helped me enjoying life. Realizing after 2months of ving drinking and having enoght stupid stories that made up for my boring past 6years of my life . I would like to say that my vacation brought me to a new sence of life during this time i found myself threw doing what ever i wanted.. it sounds kinda cheezy but when you have no one telling what you should do and what they want to do or telling how i should do things and not having to compormise anything but just lisonign to myself .. As many people may be used to this , but for me I will tell you what that was my first time ever being able to do that and it was the most natral high i have ever had.. As all my closest friend know that i always have something to do or some where to be even if i dont want to.
And I will tell it exactly how it went..
After relizing my life has been full filled with nothin but responsibility from the day i left my parents house My senior year of high school .. I have only concentrated on what is right. All the advice i have taken from everyone i trust. Was the right thing to do.. I lisoned And worked hard and focus on what is best for me.. Throught all my journey i have been threw i accomplish a great deal of thing for a 25year old .. Now i am coming out of a relationship of 6 years and a marriage of 3 years. Nothin but good things have came from my marrige and all the hard times that come with that way life no (regrets).From the outside looking in my life to others may have seemed like a dream come true. Great job (Chef at a Ritz) no money problems desent marrige and great family and tons of good people around me... I Relized that all i have cared about my hole life is the drive to get to the next step in my industry.. During that i have lost my marrige and agreat part of my personality.. As well as forgot who iam really am.. After my seperation with my wife i was left ot really care about just my self threw this i couldnt get a grip on finding my self cuz i was use to always haveign something to work for like my wife and trying to become the best i can be for her or a family that could have had .. After a quick sluty rebound relation ship that tied me over till i could walk on my own. I spiked my self in to one of the worst times in my life.. I hated my job adn just plan hated life in genral and really felt like there was any reason to get out of bed .. But all this is pretty normal at this stage of peoples lives.. Everyone i talk to that is around the same age is me.. Is surching for the same shit rather it is accomplishments or finding a career even maybe a relationship that they never had.. My advice to people that are going threw this stage is to get up and stop bitching around and put everything on the line to find what you are looking for.. Dont let money or peoples oppinons stand in the way.. just lison to yourself and go for it.. Cuz nothing is going to come out of it by sitting around and bitching about it. The way i dealed with it is the same way alot of people do it (Drinking) Its worst then drugs cuz it is legle and you can do it anytime. I started Drinking my self to a happy sober state of mine.. Which was great cuz it got me out of bed and helped me enjoying life. Realizing after 2months of ving drinking and having enoght stupid stories that made up for my boring past 6years of my life . I would like to say that my vacation brought me to a new sence of life during this time i found myself threw doing what ever i wanted.. it sounds kinda cheezy but when you have no one telling what you should do and what they want to do or telling how i should do things and not having to compormise anything but just lisonign to myself .. As many people may be used to this , but for me I will tell you what that was my first time ever being able to do that and it was the most natral high i have ever had.. As all my closest friend know that i always have something to do or some where to be even if i dont want to.
Well enoght about all that shit..it is over no more wife,Corporate stuff, work that seems endless with no sasticfacation and just doing shit cuz that is what you are supposed to do..It only took one trip of finding myself to relize i am living a life that is not for me.. Throwing everything a way and not thinking of consequences and not taking any advice from anyone. I have lisoned to everyone before and this time i just lisoned to me and me only and did whatever i want. July23, Flue up to NJ to meet my long time friend from naples.. (who also has a understanding that it is time for change.) He picked me up from the airport in the AM it was nice to be out of Otown and in to the country towns of NJ.. Driving threw little towns and seeing all the beautful trees and stores reminded me of michiagan witch ihave not been back there in years.. It made me kind a miss the weather and the diffrent style of life ... Of course He had to take me to the pla
ce in town town where the best NJ sandwiches are served..( By the way sanwiches are my favorit Food to eat.) And boy can that deli serve a sandwich. Roast Beef Joe -Tripple decker Rye bread
-House seasoned thin Roast beef
- House coleslaw
-Jersey Tomatoes
-Russian dressing ..
(Best pared with Joes peachTea)
ce in town town where the best NJ sandwiches are served..( By the way sanwiches are my favorit Food to eat.) And boy can that deli serve a sandwich. Roast Beef Joe -Tripple decker Rye bread -House seasoned thin Roast beef
- House coleslaw
-Jersey Tomatoes
-Russian dressing ..
(Best pared with Joes peachTea)
No disaponitment it was clear that chris and his family have probly been living off these sandwiches more then twice a week for years... After all detour stuff we made it to his house and i finished my change of adress stuff and some last financal crap.. We said good bye to his folks and took off to are flight to belgium at about 6:45. Saying my last couple of good byes after knowing i cut my phone off and i will not talk to anyone unless it is online.. I relize who is most important in this time in my life.. Thing were already getting better NO MORE PHONE. We had a 8 hour flight to belgium for are lay over.. We were soo hungry waiting and waiting to eat are flight dinner..
I took a pain killer to help easy my pain of being on the plane.. Kind intrusting when you mix it with a couple of drinks Never really did that before and probly wont again.. I was dizzy and sleepy it took me about a hour to eat my meal when it finally came.. I would take a couple of bites and pass out then wake up chugg some water take a couple of bits and repeat this till my meal was gone.. It was really entertaineng to the rest of the people on the flight i new they were starring and wounder what the hell was going on .. .
